Another day

July 4th 2011

My heart is full of peace today although I am still hungry for more of God.  He continues to provide for me financially.  I had a garage sale and sold a good amount of "stuff" I will never miss.  There are a couple other big items I will be selling here in the next couple of weeks.  It is exhilerating to minimize and sell things I don't need.  I just love it.  I recieved a reply back from Iris.  It seems they are holding firm on their policy to not receive any long term missionaries who have not been through the school.  I understand.  I remain curious as to which doors will be the ones to open when I knock.  I am still going to turn my job down.  I have complete peace.  My heart for Vacaville is enlarging.  I must stay in prayer over what God is doing.  I long to see freedom for every soul who goes to our church and every soul in our city.  We need a sustained revival.  I am bit afraid of what God might do to me.  He wrecks me and I wonder how He is going to use me within the systems that are already in place or if He has another plan. 

Yesterday I read over the words God has spoken to me over the last three years.  Its funny the longer it is the more I believe them.  It seems like it would be just the oppositie but thats the way of the upside down kingdom we are a part of.  I am becoming more and more sure of what He has promised although there are little to no circumstances aiding me in this assurance.  God is faithful to complete the work He began.

I am enjoying much health in my soul lately.  I'm learning to gaurd my heart by gaurding my mind.  Such a simple but life changing revelation.  Maybe one day I will blog about it.  Today I'm going to get ready for our 4th of July party and bask in the sun :)  Waiting on God is so filling.  When my confidence is in Him I can enjoy every part of my life.  Oh yeah---He provided a place for me to stay in San Jose while I am there for my workshops.  Of course He did.  Because that's who He is.  He is my Provider :)  Thank you Lord  :)